The perfect coffee mug dream

 The large family I lived with (one of them) left a couple coffee mugs next to my bed, and one under my pillow, because I must have mentioned that I collect them.

One had a nice signature on the bottom from one spouse to another, on their anniversary, and the others were more commercial, like maybe they were adopted from a garage sale.
It's the thought that counts, right?
I wondered (the dream wondered) how much a blue-striped coffee or tea mug could be.
Perfect little stripes, with gold trim.
Well it must be a popular dream.

$103 (on sale from 184) for two mugs, sounds pricey.
Why?
*I* always used to remark to myself that I must have great taste, because I leak it out all over the place in retail stores.
Whatever I pick is the finest and the most expensive item.
Whether it's a computer-keyboard or a television or clothes.
I got burned on the clothes, they only looked nice in the store.
The keyboard was a bluetooth one from Microsoft, and they wanted $250. 
I couldn't afford it then or now.
The televisions were deeply unsatisfying...it's what's on a tv, not how it looks that matters, but in a store you aren't thinking about TV shows.

That brings me back to mugs. Why the hell someone decided any mug should cost zillions...unless my mind is picking up commercials in my sleep.

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Google suggests the word "vintage," as if these were popular many years ago.
I don't know, I only just heard of them.
Not 6th-grader style either, all wobbly lines.
No horizontal lines either.
No, the closest one is the first one I found on Google above, but the price went way up since google first advertised it (I lost the google link.)

The computer on Google senses my interest and raised the price!

See? Good taste.
Maybe "Blue Bananas" or "Elvis" mugs would be cheaper??

AI salesmen, what a concept.

There's a very oversized version of what I want, and decent-sized ones for twice as much.
A model holds the mug and you can see the colors change as you hover over the different selections.
The only sensible one is the plainest one, and it's way too big, 
But I might get it.
I'm not sure why.

Why are stripes "Vintage" or "Retro" anyway?
I'm pretty old and I don't remember these at all.

veilguard (the yadablah)

 I get that this is a continuation of the game but I'm getting way too much instant-lore.

The bad guy has a big spaceship and has a kind of a curfew going on. 
I just met a hot lady and she is well dressed too.
*My* character looks slightly deformed compared to her.
I'm debating restarting, staring at everyone's cheekbones for hints.
Why do guys who play videogames suddenly have to know all about face makeup?
And then when the game is in progress I'm distracted by my bad judgement. Her chin and jaw are too small, her forehead too wide, she is way too pale.
She has nice eyes but her eye-makeup is wrong somehow.
On the other hand, her "default" was an elderly woman who spent too much time in the sun.

The dialogue is too fast to follow. Old dudes crapping on this game are deaf or something, I'm guessing.
Real bad guy must be stopped, at all costs. I got that.
I haven't died yet.
Five game-minutes and counting.

PS "Bellara" is hot (I think) canu-canu?? Nuki-nuki?? and the rest is Dickensian freaking lore (Lore, lore, lore And stuff) lalalalala....lalalala
And yes, there are nested quests and treasure and cats to pet, but why bother.
The labyrinthian primary quest is nested enough, tyvm.
It's a great game but it's boring (so far) but it's a great game (*yawn*)
Bellara has the sweetest voice, and my player is so jealous, but they make her have lines like some airhead valley girl (not her fault)

(oooo, "Gloaming Lantern", ooo) (wtf is a gloaming? sounds like a romance novel from the thirties, "The gloaming", a southern plantation.

I must have her, she will be mine
(obscure movie reference, nvm)

I don't know why but the show "That Girl" is on my mind.
It's one of those shows where the theme-song was way more interesting than the show, about New York, filmed in California.
Donald is whiny, Ann's dad is a generic A-hole, but Ann manages to be the perfect girl (o, a commercial. Quick! change the channel)

My game character looks like this photo.

Wut is "Ossuary"?
A cemetery for poor people.

Who decided "cemetery" and "cemetary" , a better more bombastic blog

(but, "Ossuary" not "Ossuery"?) bone depositery (hmm)

-tery (cemetery)

-tory (obligatory)

-tary (secretary)

FOAD (Funduscopic)

food production

 find a spatula

clean the pan

preheat the pan

crack the eggs carefully (oops)

Beat the eggs(?)

Think vast amounts of random thoughts:
Why do spinster-hens lay eggs anyway?

Post-partumly depressed hens

Wonder about the pan commercial where the lady blows on the omelet.

Wonder about the spatula (I have two, at least)
Wonder about the landlord charging for Gas, and why my mail has stopped.
Wonder what machine-shops do, to complete small projects "It's all about the tooling"

Think of henhouse lights, do they run 24/7??

Henhouse lights would be good on cloudy and rainy days, and bad for negative publicity (Think sad puppy commercials)

Grok

 I grok you grok etc....
In theory. it means to understand something thoroughly.
In practice, (I think) it'll be a propaganda machine, but no one has said that, and I'm only guessing.

I would have to "Grok" the book "1984" to be able to make cogent wry comments, and I barely remember it.
People heavily into propaganda sling a lot of adjectives around, and it's prolly a style of writing that has a name.
But in the most general of terms, a person makes quick fact filled statements as if they were absolutely true, and draws a vituperative conclusion.
"The evil traitor John Dolly has perpetrated many crimes against the state, and must be stopped, for the safety of people everywhere" is a really bad example, and is the reason you don't see me drawing quotes from "1984" and comparing them to "Grok," "X" and "XaI" all owned by the fascist Musk and his megalomaniacal boss.

?

It's prolly (prolly) going on a long list of old-guy-pariah things I won't trust:

Trump Vaccines
Trump Eggs
Trump Schools
Trump imperialist motives ("world peace")

(beeeeeecause, what's the worst that could happen?? A loyalist scientist or pharmacist adulterates vaccines. He doesn't vaccinate birds anymore, eliminates large swaths of education, takes over countries because of world peacefulness and manifest destiny)

"Antitrust or Anti-Truth?"
https://publicknowledge.org/antitrust-or-anti-truth-jim-jordans-latest-attack-on-the-war-on-disinformation/

Unrelated (but it's cute and a TOT)

She became mental because
Her head swelled up badly because
she Bumped her head because
she was running away from her mom because
her sister lied
so Blame Biden and Obama
(Off with their heads)

A.H. for Pres.

Senseless Trivia

 I'd like to buy another game, but I need a credit card.
The sale ends today. I will miss out. 

They have the number on file so I could buy furniture or a plant, just not games,

Thanks, hackers.
(Bloody self righteous assholes making it difficult for everyone else.)

Groceries are fine except that you can't believe their stock (as in, "in stock")

and you cannot ever believe the default statement "Allow substitutions"

because they will ignore it and refews to deliver anything instead of just substituting for an in-stock item.
I got so pissed that I ordered way too much on a different order (small, large, brown, whatever) and the "Large, brown, whatever" are coming along with the manual substitute for the "small."
So Now I'll have 4 times the items I need, and I paid cash (so stfu, gossipers)
So I'll, just, get creative. I hear "easter" is coming anyway.

My immediate train of thought, having played "Avowed" to death,

is the butt-shot (when actors walk away from the camera) they give to one of the actors.
We watch "Giatta" slowly walk away, her butt swaying up and down.
Which brings me to my rant.
My female protagonist walks a lot like Frankenstein on speed.
She could walk as slow as the game allows, but she still would look like a robot with kinks.
Maybe Giatta's butt is the writers proving to the player that they could do better, if they wanted, but they don't.

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a REALLY twisted train of thought:

the Large browns are the smallest I've ever seen.
hand-picked and organic, they prolly should be boiled longer,

But "Large"? False advertising.
(How they hand pick eggs is beyond me, but they should clean their glasses)

"Large? Large!??" 

Get up!! The movie

 Indiana Jones and the senseless plot.

A Nordic stereotype in South Central Baghdad

Anyway she makes long-winded plot expositions but no one listens (I didn't.)
Indy is tied to a chair and still manages to thwart the evil henchmen.

Meanwhile, Grace Park (someone who looks a lot like her)

is the girl next door, and she has just turned 18.
Her neighbor (the protagonist) who is house-sitting for Indy, has fallen hard for her but never speaks to her, only looks longingly over the fence into her back yard.
She smiles wryly (wicked smirk?) on her 18th birthday, and piles on the eye-makeup.
uh, time to get up...

Hot (Professional) (talented) (idk) women in 2025:
OK it's prolly an offensive subtitle but I'll edit this.
She's as old as my younger sister, and I stole a picture from her video in an RTG palace, with an RTG piano with a super RTG organ in the background.
This short video doesn't really emphasize how upper-crust the scenery is; I suppose it's a symphony orchestra-place, I wouldn't know.
She looks very comfortable in it, wherever it is.
Like you just got invited to dinner and she's playing in the living room.

(link)

I'm fighting this editor, please stand by.
Trains of thought get derailed very quickly, apologies in advance.

"Jack Dorsey" is prolly bucking for a Trump position, firing so many employees.
And who is he anyway?
Why does he have a ridiculously long beard?
It's like (by comparison) Fingernails worn by Howard Hughes...
Let me back up slightly.

A user commented that they were given 45-minutes notice.
Not a nice guy.

Laying off people is a long tradition in the US, but have some tact, some simpatico.

Or is this the NWO.

two notes to self: 

• Retrieve a photo this editor ate.
• Wonder more about "Bluesky" and why it never gets quoted anywhere.

The made-up email scandal from Hilary Clinton pales in comparison, although they shrug and blame "The Russians"...o... k

Judge not, lest. 

Pointless word of the day:

"Sundry" like when a person says "various and sundry"

which means "various" anyway.

"Who knows,"
"A certain something"

"Whatever happens, happens"
Useless phrases immortalized in different languages and in songs.

The phrase "Life sucks and then you die" is pseudo-profound, a filler phrase.
I only meant to speak about "Sundry," but the others rose from the mucky swamp of my mind.
I'll just bet there is a book of pointless phrases somewhere.

Deeeeep thots (reddit)

 This could take a while to write, pardon my dust.
Or ignore it.

https://www.reddit.com/r/HomeworkHelp/comments/1jfu1az/1st_grade_math_how_can_you_describe_this/?sort=old

Get some people with an obsession to jaw on about absolutely anything,
Or,
Read my blog and despair that there are no comments.
People will wax philosophical about anything.
Using many words.

It's a trick question.
Many say "No" (it cannot be proven) as a pithy and meaningful answer.
Or being the supercharged genius first-grader you are, you could

• draw a numberline
• Convert ONE of the sides (so it isn't both sides)

uh.....

I ran outta steam.
rewrite 4+2 to 5+1 (says someone)
If there was a vote, no one would agree, and anarchy and chaos would ensue.

Dictators would dismiss the question and fire the questioner.
Then they could dictate the answer.

I flunked math for many reasons but this one deserves recognition
(Math is written by these guys)

5+2=4+(1+1)
Who the hell invited Parentheses?

I'm not up on my emojis but this guy loves his own answer.
1st grade math doesn't include variables nor parentheses, does it?
I'm guessing this was a small lesson,
 to teach you to understand _______,
and the "_____" was edited out to turn it into a trick question.

Some teacher who talks like one, wrote the below.
Unfortunately they touched on several unexplained concepts.
1. Parentheses in First grade

2. "make a ten" Her words have no meaning.

3. "commutative" "Algebra" which, us being bots full of microprocessors, will know about one day (We'll be einsteins)

doubles facts?

I got a good one, but it's politically incorrect:

Teach currency, change, "Make a dollar" (add coins to make a dollar)
Give change from a dollar.

There won't be any calculators or registers close by, you'll just have to know about two nickels making a dime, four quarters in a dollar. 
I wouldn't actually know who gives a fuck about "Associative" but throw in parentheses for the hell of it. a*(b*c) is the same as (a*b)*c so what's with the fancy-assed jewelry? a*b*c, fucket.

Pedantic a-hols, "Minuend" "Subtrahend" and ten zillion other terms no one uses

(Vinculum)

Word of the day:

"Demiurge" which (in context) is a cute name for a writer or an artist.

Wiki has a thought, but it's in greek.

People get mad at stuff they categorize as "woke"

But I'm one-finger typing on a phone. So no links yet. Please stand by.

https://movieweb.com/snow-white-rachel-zegler-controversy-is-racist/

https://www.outkick.com/culture/little-kids-parents-walking-out-trump-hating-snow-white-remake

Lots less relevant (zzzzzz) 
two viewpoints

As far as "Snow white",

Theaters are creepy (creepier) 
And white people condemn Columbians (they're not white enough)
I think I need editing.

Lawyers richer than god bow down to trump, as will everyone else if they want anything good for themselves.
So me and my teeny little blog do not want to invite Sauron, it's bad enough with gossipy neighbors.

Licks

But I had a point, I swear, only it got all self-edited.
Kamala Harris, Snow White (would fail against any white)

not that it mattered;
 they lavished love on the five or six states that really matter (not yours.)
And once they assimilate all the judges, Voting will be a fond memory.
But yeah Harris Lost, White did poorly.

(Ignoring maybe that musicals are so 1960's)
(They should'a picked Anne Hathaway,  
It's racist to call a person "Racist" rather than conservative, hmm)
This needs work.

Miami residents in the sixties picketing to remove the "Nigger" from their neighborhood (on PBS) 
People have evolved since then. 
Not "She's a woman" but "She wears glasses, has a brain injury, was mean to her workers, she prolly wasn't born here, sold stock, has a basement, hates babies"
And what power-hungry nut wants to endure that?
They've got it down to a science, aided by AI.
Fucket, we're screwed, nevermind.

What, Like it's hard?

 "Ee socks so goo" (a spell) (He sucks so good)

"What like it's hard?" (another spell) (Walk like a Tard)

I had more but my mind doesn't do short-term memory at all.

"The bleak emptiness".... "(what,) My Mind?"

O.
A biggie: "We Twine" (I twine, you twine, they twine)
I never heard "twine" as a verb before, and it reminds me of ivy climbing up a pole or maybe two vines twisting together.
But nowhere on Internetdom does it say exactly what it means when Sapadal says it.
"We learn. We twine," twine with what?
You could get all bombastic and philosophical, but I am looking for specifics.
"We relate," maybe. 
"We agree," less likely.
"Fascinating" (a la Spock) probably not, but it's related, I swear.
"We wrap ourselves around the concept" Now I'm just reaching.

Stuff is fraught with meaning.
"Dream of golden poppies on the road ahead."
Aren't poppies in the game associated with death?

Or something, they're creepy.
"Dandelions with two heads" also creepy, because I know this isn't a nature documentary.

I tried writing this while the game was running (and steam and WeMod) and it crashed.
I'll try to rephrase this from memory:
Yatzli says, "You Do know what it means to lose all your teeth in your dreams?"
No, and neither does the internet.
They harp on the word "Lose" or try to sell you on dental care.
One more unsolved mystery.
I cheated like an SOB to get into Yatzli's little library, and then the computer froze.
So...I know it's an aside, one of those things a person shouldn't worry about, but I do.
Mama mushroom leads her little kid mushrooms through the woods.
Massacre bears and giant Lizards (I think maybe the lizards are the indigenous people)
"Why did I have to kill the bear?" asks God.
I was only following orders.
I don't know if they mean all this subtext or if I am projecting.
Anyway I have to type fast and avoid the crash....

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I was Buddha, Gandhi, Mother Theresa
(as long as You asked and I could choose)

For she IS the righteous chosen One!

Train:

"The righteous Few" according to the people who think of themselves that way,
Truly believe in Trump.
Verily:

(comments) Link

Loedwin swore an oath to her God (Woedica)

The train of thought ends with "The Battle  hymn of the republic"

(I can't write I'm a terrorist or hate babies, but you've turned congress, this great country, into a "Righteous vs everyone else" (O just play the damn game, they write lots better)

The voice in my head said, "Brucella!"

"Out, out! get it out!!"

OK forget it, hepto and spaghettio are not on my list, I am not anorexic and I haven't vomited in years (from bad cookies, so I tossed them, get it?)

The so-called diagnosticians couldn't find it with both hands (read above)

so maybe there is an AI computer test.

But my voice is cute, coming up with terms like "Brucella."

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A link I don't want to lose: https://www.sfgate.com/sf-culture/article/dr-drew-pinsky-20177803.php which is sort of a point I was trying to research.
Dr. Drew is a Conservative. I wondered.

My game (and the article) use words that wouldn't be allowed before, I think.
People said them constantly, you just wouldn't see them engraved in games or blogs.

"Fucking" is an adjective, not a verb (the polite one anyway).
"Asshole" is also an adjective, not a body-part.
"Adjective" is being used loosely,

 I suppose there are clubbier grammarian terms. 

I can't write a blog about it,

but sticking it here on the ass-end of an unread blog is prolly all right.

Quick note (amazon vs Kroger)

 Not having to go to the market is a luxury I can usually only afford once a month.

The shame of not being able to ask a friend or a neighbor to pick up bananas is on my mind.
A doctor lady totally gave me some hamburger after making a special trip there, but then I spoiled it all when I went into a tirade about money-grubbing proctologists.

So OK let's forget all that.

My supermarket delivers,

Amazon delivers, 

Amazon is cheaper but their products don't taste as good (Kroger cornflakes and Kroger green beans are better.)

Amazon seems easier. 
I had a whole nebulous rant all prepared before I started writing this, and now I just feel sheepish.
And poor.

Service fee and Tip

 The rest of this is nerdy rants about Avowed relationships.
Kai, the green-scaled guy, has an endless bombast for would-be psychologists and social workers. He reputedly (I wouldn't know) is the only character allowed to have a BFF relationship with the player.
Yatzli is apparently married, so she flirts tons with whoever will listen.
Giatta Castell is the only well-balanced character in the game.

I enjoy this game more and more, but there are limits.
I skip over dialogue and optional quests. I can't wait for the ending when Sapadal takes over my mind and turns me slowly into a tree (I think that's what she does)

Definitely the mind-thing, but ignoring subtle hints about your body, I don't actually know about her physical side effects..

If we're all 12-14 it's a nice G-Rated story, lotsa gore, no sex.

I'm too old for an "old" quiz.

They're right about kids' shows, most of them sucked and I never watched them.
But I'm flattered you think I'm young (in mind, anyway)

No star-trek, rifleman, bonanza, "fugitive" questions, and they're still on.
They must be trying to resurrect Crap, "MAGA" 

Abnormal Psychology (Avowed)

Help! (help!) ((help!!))

 Knowing around ten percent of this story is a terrible beginning for a blog.

Woedica is a bit of a sadistic fascist who wants to kill Sapadal (please gloss over all misspellings or this could take days)

It's Art!
(It's insane!)
We're unenlightened (IOW, "whut?")

Referencing the picture above, (sort of),
The original Star-trek movie (V'ger) was bombastic and full of itself, banking on worshipping fans, and I hated it, and I was told, "It's too high-level for you, you're not cerebral enough") (Think horrible epithets and you have what I thought at that time)

The player has to use psychology to get the novel at the end to have a happy story.

Woedica cannot brook opposition and kills everyone opposing her.
Sapadal has some sort of brain damage from being tortured as a child.

Woedica vs Sapadal.
Free Sapadal and banish the eveil queen, or burn everyone everywhere and Sapadal would be happy (in part of her mind.)
Someone actually wrote this stuff, what twisted fantasies lurk in the darkside?

Plant people

Sapadal-merging isn't just a fantasy in my head, according to some article, but it's bad, says the article.
Why?
"Envoy" (me, the MC, the protagonist) has either been in love, never been in love, or has a boyfriend (she's a girl) waiting for her back home.
Writing this paragraph made me realize that if Player were a guy, the results might be different.
Regardless. People discuss stuff fervently that I've never seen in my game.

Wait, whut?

https://www.reddit.com/r/avowed/comments/1izu4uz/can_we_talk_about_that_ending/ Typical internet-style, people are vague and clubby, and you don't know exactly how to choose that ending.
I'm um, "Be careful what you wish for," but it is a game.|
My search for whether Envoy has ever been in love goes on, no one seems to care or I haven't found it yet.

BTW, envoy is the reincarnated queen of the Ekida whose city was conquered.
(I think.)

Whether Envoy ever gets to play anything besides Dudley Do-Right is worth exploring (I think.)

Envoy could be the green-guy's girlfriend, 

the skeleton's ex-lover, 

or part-plant-person 

(none of these endings EVER happened to my character) 

(The "friend" forever)

I worry so much about getting around and not being lost, that I miss tons.

The minigame of getting "Kai" to forgive himself, move on and explore the world, is a type and a shadow of the full game.

Free Kai's soul.
Free Sapadal's soul.
Cringe at Avowed II, "Woedica's back and she's pissed off."

o well.

(See previous entry) Sadistic women and entries through the rear make good
darkest-fantasies but terrible endings.
Jimmy Cagney in the grapefruit movie is a nice example, and it was from 1931... OK maybe that's too much of a stretch to follow. 

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The artist making my game "Sapphic Space" and creating a bot in space, made the bot arch her back during conversation.

Imagine maybe that a ceiling is too low, and a person leans foward to compensate.
The closest term I know is "Lordosis," but the women (woman, *sigh*) doing this are not forced by their body to do this, but rather they strike a pose.

https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/abs/pii/S0191886922005098

The non-flirty bot is broken and cannot be woken up.
But I'm including the screenshot for comparison.
She stands straight, I guess (I am not the photographer)

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Killer mushrooms, what's next, deadly burritos?
That you'd fall in love with at airports (nevermind)

Whatever you believe or can conceive of,
yada first and with a better blog

Anyway....

I'm part Sapadal now.
Everyone says that this ending is dark, 

but I've already played the Dudley Do-Right ending.
OK, plantdom, here I come.

The narrator reading the book stops to let Sapadal Speak.

"You're Mine.
"Forever."
And lots of other words.
Dark? Don't believe it.
Specifically, the book is the same (War never changes.)

Best ending ever.